Only in Heaven…

“Only Heaven will reveal the top part of God’s tapestry” – Corrie Ten Boom. I am reading “The Hiding Place” and this quote by Corrie Ten Boom stopped me dead in my tracks. It is just so true. Our lives here so often look like a tangled mess, something that is hard to make sense of, something that seems so random and unorderly, something that looks like…well…the back side of a tapestry. Yet what we don’t realize is that what looks seemingly like a big random mess on one side is really yielding a most beautiful design on the other side. The problem is that we can’t see the top side…yet. But one day, one glorious blessed day, we will indeed see the top side of that tapestry.

And not only will we see the top side of the tapestry and marvel at its beauty, but we will come face to face with the artist of the tapestry, and fall down and worship Him exclaiming, “You do all things well.” We will see that indeed the tapestry that he created of our lives was something most beautiful and most glorifying to Him, even though we couldn’t see it at the time.

O how I long to see the top side of the tapestry of my life that God is weaving. Right now, all that I often see is a tangled mess. I have too many questions of “why” that look like threads tied in ugly knots. I have hurt and pain that look like frayed threads of many colors going nowhere. I have confusion and uncertainty that just makes everything look like one tangled mess. This is the back side of my tapestry.

But I truly believe in the artistic ability of my creator. I truly believe in His goodness, love, mercy, kindness, and power. I know that His plans for His children are to bring glory to His name forever. His plans are to fashion His children more and more into the image of His son, Jesus. His promise is to cause all things on our tapestry to work together to create something most beautiful that even the angels in Heaven will marvel at the finished creation.

And so all that I can do is trust Him and move forward. I’m banking everything on His promises and His character. I’m not hedging my bets. I’m all in. And I believe that I’m safe and secure in Him. I believe that He really is making something beautiful even though I can’t see it now. But I will see it in Heaven.

Life is filled with a lot of pain.  We are walking through our own grief in the loss of our precious Susana that often still just seems like it happened just yesterday.  We are also walking with a friend in the grief of the sudden loss of her husband just a few days ago.  We continue to hear about others we know who are sick, who are fighting childhood cancer, or who have had loved ones just recently die.  It has been difficult.  I have seen the pain and hardship of life more in these last few months than I ever have in my whole life.  My grief and mourning over Susana is much like the weather. Some days are filled with sunshine. Some days are cloudy with a chance of showers. Some days are just overcast. And some days are terrential rains. Perhaps that is the way it will be from now until the day when the Lord brings me home to glory. By His grace, I can live with that.

But even so, I am experiencing more and more the pains that are often associated with our struggle here on this earth. Jesus prepared us for these struggles. He told us very plainly, “In this world, you will have many troubles.” But He didn’t just leave that as the end. He gave us the promised victory that we hold onto. Right after saying that we will have many troubles in this world, He triumphantly states, “But take heart, for I have overcome the world.” What a glorious hope that we have in Jesus. He is the victor. We will not suffer ultimate defeat. We may feel defeated at times while struggling through here, but we have His promise that we will stand with Him in victory on that final day.

And it will be during that victory party in Heaven where the top side of our tapestry will be revealed. It is only then will we see the beauty that God has been fashioning in us all throughout our tangled messed up lives. Yes, He will one day make all things new. I can’t wait!!!!!

5 thoughts on “Only in Heaven…

  1. Praying for you Maria this Mother’s Day. May God continually remind you that your pain is not in vain…may He continue to give you opportunities for testimony that will bring glory to His name. May you relate to the people of Haiti in a new and profound way as you minister to them. May you always see His purpose in your loss even amongst the struggle. May you keep the perspective, that the fight is not ours. At the point of our most desperate hurts, God’s voice is always speaking abundant love for His children. May you hear His voice and feel His nearness today. God bless you.

  2. Cody,

    How beautifully put…. I struggle, in my flesh, during “weak” and weary moments, during the overwhelming “things” that I face at times, and I just lean on my Lord and Savior. Nothing happens without first going through His Soverign, Holy, and Beautiful, Mighty Hands. His way is perfect. His ways are not our ways, His thoughts are not our thoughts……. My mother just went into a standard simple procedure Thursday afternoon, just to come out a parapalegic. We are all shocked and numb, but I look to my loving and Great God who can do anything, who is able to do more than we can understand. He gives us the strength and grace to stand strong and rest in Him. It is His battle, not mine. Yes, what a GLORIOUS HOPE we have in Jesus!! He IS the victor and our sustainer. I also, like SO MANY others, CAN NOT WAIT for that undescribeable moment when we will be with our Heavenly Father for Eternity, and be a part of the biggest victory party ever imaginable! OH DEAR LORD, COME QUICKLY!! GOD IS GREAT IN ALL THINGS!! STILL, WE WILL PRAISE YOU!!

    My Soul Longs for the Courts of the Lord!

    Psalm 84:1-12 “How lovely is your dwelling place, O Lord of hosts! My soul longs, yes, faints for the courts of the Lord; my heart and flesh sing for joy to the living God. Even the sparrow finds a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may lay her young, at your altars, O Lord of hosts, my King and my God. Blessed are those who dwell in your house, ever singing your praise! Selah Blessed are those whose strength is in you, in whose heart are the highways to Zion. As they go through the Valley of Baca they make it a place of springs; the early rain also covers it with pools.They go from strength to strength; each one appears before God in Zion. O Lord God of hosts, hear my prayer; give ear, O God of Jacob! Selah
    Behold our shield, O God; look on the face of your anointed! For a day in your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere. I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of wickedness. For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor. No good thing does he withhold
    from those who walk uprightly. O Lord of hosts, blessed is the one who trusts in you!”

    “How Great Is Our God” lyrics

    The splendor of a King, clothed in majesty
    Let all the earth rejoice
    All the earth rejoice

    He wraps himself in Light, and darkness tries to hide
    And trembles at His voice
    Trembles at His voice

    How great is our God, sing with me
    How great is our God, and all will see
    How great, how great is our God

    Age to age He stands
    And time is in His hands
    Beginning and the end
    Beginning and the end

    The Godhead Three in One
    Father Spirit Son
    The Lion and the Lamb
    The Lion and the Lamb

    Name above all names
    Worthy of our praise
    My heart will sing
    How great is our God

    How great is our God, sing with me
    How great is our God, and all will see
    How great, how great is our God

    YOUR GRACE IS ENOUGH LYRICS – CHRIS TOMLIN

    Great is Your faithfulness oh God
    You wrestle with the sinner’s heart
    You lead us by still waters and to mercy
    And nothing can keep us apart

    So remember Your people
    Remember Your children
    Remember Your promise
    Oh God

    Your grace is enough
    Your grace is enough
    Your grace is enough for me

    Great is Your love and justice God
    You use the weak to lead the strong
    You lead us in the song of Your salvation
    And all Your people sing along

    So remember Your people
    Remember Your children
    Remember Your promise
    Oh God

    Your grace is enough
    Your grace is enough
    Your grace is enough for me (x2)

    So remember Your people
    Remember Your children
    Remember Your promise
    Oh God

    Your grace is enough
    Your grace is enough
    Your grace is enough for me

    Your grace is enough
    Heaven reaching down to us
    Your grace is enough for me
    God i see your grace is enough
    I’m covered in your love
    Your grace is enough for me

  3. It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything on here, but I want you, Maria, and Isabela to know that I think about you so VERY often – often multiple times a day. And I pray for you, and I ache for you. But I also rejoice with you in all that God is doing in and through you.

    I can’t wait to see you guys in Haiti again – very soon, I hope. I’m waiting on the Lord to provide the funds, and looking for ways to raise them. I’m praying that he’ll make a way in the months ahead!

    I have a photo gallery widget on my desktop, with pictures of children and families that need prayer, and those that need a miracle. I see beautiful little Susana’s face, and Isabela’s, every morning when I turn on my laptop. I’m reminded of your family daily, and I lift you up to the Lord and place you in His hands. You are all so heavy on my heart. We love you guys…

    Come, Lord Jesus, come!!

  4. A very late happy mother,s day and an early happy father’s day. You guys are so sweet and compassionate. My computer has been down so I could not check this site, but have continued praying. How is the new baby to be?

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