To those of you who would like to view a part of Susana’s Homecoming Celebration service that we had last week, please click on this link. www.stilliwillpraiseyou.com. Please sign the guestbook there and let us know how Susana has touched your life.
I am praying about writing a book in the future detailing all that we have been through and how God has revealed Himself to us through our most difficult trials. This was never my intention to do this, but so many people have said that my writing should be published so that others may grow and give glory to God also, therefore I have to believe that the Lord may be giving me this platform to make His glory known. To think about how the Lord might use our trials and Susana’s death to lead many many people into the Kingdom of God just brings tears to my eyes. I can’t wait to bee gathered in heaven among a huge group of people and the Lord says, “Do you see all these people gathered here? They are here as a result of me choosing to use Susana and your family as an instrument to display my glory.” Oh how I know my soul will sing greatly when I can finally see.
So, please pray for me that the Lord will give me wisdom and courage to continue to put into words the things that He is doing in my life. It is painful. My heart hurts much every day. I miss my little girl more than words could ever convey. But the Lord is our comfort. he is our strong tower where we can run to. He is the God of all comfort. And only in Him can we find the strength and faith to persevere for His glory.
I would ask a favor. If you think that perhaps I should write a book, would you help me get the word out? Please copy this post to your Facebook page and ask others that you know to do the same. Tell all your friends and co-workers and family members to go to www.stilliwillpraiseyou.com to view the Homecoming Celebration. The more comments we receive on the new site www.stilliwillpraiseyou.com , the more there is the possibility of catching the eye of a publishing company. Let me know what you think.
The way I see it is that this will have to be the Lord’s doing and nothing of my own. I am not looking for fame. I am not aspiring to be an author. I only want the Lord to be glorified through even our deepest valleys of pain. And I want others to know, many others, that He is good. That He truly is all sufficient. I would never have chosen such a platform that involved such a cost. But perhaps the Lord is answering my prayer that I have prayed since I came to know Him at age nineteen, “Lord, use me for Your glory.” His way of answering is certainly not what I would have expected. But He is God. And if this is how He is choosing to use me for His glory, then so be it.
On one final note…We are in Haiti right now! We came down yesterday to surprise the team that was scheduled to come. They were totally surprised to see us greet them at the airport in Port au Prince. We will be here for about 10 days. We are still grieving and we will always be grieving to some degree, so it is better for us to grieve and still go. We are sad, but we are not hopeless. We hurt, but we are not paralyzed. God is able to move us forward in His kingdom work even amidst our grief and pain. We will take our grief and pain and allow the Lord to turn it into worship, sacrifice, and giving. May He use us to continue to touch the lives of the broken. And so, we press on knowing that He still has a plan for us to do while we are here on this earth. God bless you.