Still I will praise You…Still I will praise You Lord.

One of Susana’s favorite worship songs is Matt Redman’s “You never let go.”  The bridge of the song is, “I can see the light that is coming for the heart that holds on.  And there will be an end to these struggles, but until that day comes, still I will praise You, still I will praise You Lord.  Every time we sing it together in the car, just as the line says, “but until that day comes”, I say out loud, “What are we gonna do?”  And then we all point up to heaven as we sing, “Still I will praise You. Still I will praise You Lord.”

And this is what we have been doing through it all…and this is what we will continue to do until “that day comes” for each one of us.  Below is a picture of Susana doing just that several months ago in the hospital.  Here she is, stricken with cancer, being prodded and poked by so many doctors and nurses, having more tests and scans done than most people do in a lifetime, and what is she doing?  Lifting up her hands in praise and adoration to Jesus!  Oh my beautiful girl!  What an inspiration!!!

And that is what we are all doing.  We will not stop lifting our hands to Jesus and praising His glorious name.  He is so good to have prepared a place in heaven for those who trust in Him.  How can we ever shake our fist at God and be angry at Him for what is happening?  We simply cannot.  He is overwhelmingly good in all He does.  If this life was the end, then yes, I would be leading the way with the fists raised with fury.  But this is not the end.  He has made us with eternity in our hearts.  We know that this is the beginning for Susana.  The beginning of true life.  Yes, God is good.  Yes, this still hurts more than words could ever describe.  But, yes, Still we will praise the Lord.”

And that’s just what I did this morning at church.  Through the flowing of tears throughout worship, throughout the teaching, and throughout our small group.  But, still I was praising the Lord.  Some people were shocked to see me in church just days after getting the news that my 4 year old precious daughter is dying.  But, I couldn’t be at a better place THAN church.  What better should I do?  Watch TV all day?  Go to the casino?  Join a social club?  No, in the house of God is the ONLY place where I want to be to find strength, comfort, grace, truth, and love.  There is no better place.

It reminds me of what Peter said when many of the disciples turned away from following Jesus because His ways just seemed too hard.  Jesus looked to them and said, “Are you also going to leave?”  To which Peter replied, “Lord, to whom should we go?  You alone have the words of eternal life.”  And that is how we feel.  Yes, we have come to a part of our journey in following Jesus that is harder than ever.  it is a difficult way.  It offends all that the natural mind and natural eye see.  but, by His grace, we shall cling to Him.  By His grace, we shall not leave.  For just like Peter, we also can go no place else, for in Christ alone is our hope found.  And no matter what struggles we go through, He gives us the grace to say, “Still I will praise You…Still I will praise You Lord.

Still, I will praise You Lord!

33 thoughts on “Still I will praise You…Still I will praise You Lord.

  1. Oh Cody. God bless you my dear friend. God Bless Maria, your beautiful wife. God bless Isabella your beautiful daughter. And God bless sweet Susana, your brave and beautiful girl. I have not been able to stop thinking about you or praying for you. You have been so heavy on my heart. I have not stopped crying since I read yesterday’s blog. Thank you for keeping us posted on where and how you are doing. I have shared your news with many and many are now praying for your family. I can only hope that the Lord will somehow divide your sorrows and allow us to carry some of this pain for you and your precious family. Though my heart breaks for you, Maria and the girls, I too will stand with you and I will still praise the Lord. I will stand with you in praying for Susana’s miracle. I will not let go until the Lord says it is to be so. Please give Maria and the your little princesses super big hugs from me. Love you lots, Codeman!!! Cheryl XOXOXOXO

  2. Amen! Amen! Amen! So glad the Lord ministered today to you in your place of worship…His grace falls like rain…what an encouragement this was to me.

    Thank you for the picture…when I want to complain…oh Lord please bring that image of that precious little girl raising her hands to worship her Lord in the midst of fear and suffering.

    I loved this: “One of Susana’s favorite worship songs is Matt Redman’s “You never let go.” The bridge of the song is, “I can see the light that is coming for the heart that holds on. And there will be an end to these struggles, but until that day comes, still I will praise You, still I will praise You Lord. Every time we sing it together in the car, just as the line says, “but until that day comes”, I say out loud, “What are we gonna do?” And then we all point up to heaven as we sing, “Still I will praise You. Still I will praise You Lord.”

    And this is what we have been doing through it all…and this is what we will continue to do until “that day comes” for each one of us.”

    In Him
    Jean, Bill, Rebecca, Anna and Mikayla Lilley

  3. Beautiful, what a testimony! Thank you for sharing your life, and struggles with me – so through you my faith is strengthened!

    Sister in Christ,
    Rebekah

  4. We are keeping Susana and your whole family in prayer. Your strength and faith help keep us strong.

  5. What a beautiful testimony you ALL are Maria! We are praying for you ALL – we think so fondly of our time together last year and meeting you all. Love, The Smiths
    Rick, Lisa, Dan (you did not meet him) Stephen and Sammi

  6. My heart is aching for you. I know that words are not adequate to convey what you are going through right now. I pray that God will wrap His arms around you and give you comfort and peace.

  7. I’m praying for a mighty miracle of God! Just because the doctors say there is nothing left for them to do, doesn’t mean it’s over. I am a nurse. I have seen God revive people from the dead. I have seen people recover who by doctor’s standards should never have recovered. I have seen many miracles over the years in my business. The doctors are done. All this means to me is that now God can step in and do something amazing! For with men this is impossible, but for God, all things are possible! Stay strong! Don’t lose your hope!

  8. Michelle,

    We are in complete agreement with you. Yes, the doctors have given their final word, but we believe that the Lord is able to heal her at the last minute if He so chooses. And we are still praying for that. But we are also preparing our hearts as well as Susana’s should He choose to glorify Himself by means of taking her home. Thank you so much for your prayers.

  9. Cody I am so encouraged by your faith and that of your family! I see the great cost that God is asking of you and Maria….but I see from the struggles how He is using this mightly! As a pastor in training here at Southern I am seeking to learn from this trial that your family is going through and it brings tears of great joy to see your faith stengthen in this fire. Until that great getting up morning I pray to this end …that we may carry this great hope of eternal salvation through Christ to the nations. As you said earlier though He slay me yet will I trust Him! I know nothing more than to petition the Father on your families behalf and ask Him in agreement with your prayers for His name to be glorified! Remember the great hymns of faith and keep singing! May the Lord bring His peace upon you and yours and strengthen you to the journey He has called you! I’ll see you and Maria and Isabela and Susana at the finish line!

  10. Oh Cody, Maria, Susana, and Isabella,
    I read these 2 most recent posts earlier today, shared them with Mark, and we both just clung to each other and wept and prayed for all of you. Any parent can sympathize with your pain. But with our daughters being almost exactly the same ages of yours… I can’t explain it, but we literally physically ache on your behalf. We cling to Christ with you and shout with you, as Job did, “The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.” We pray that the grace to continue to proclaim this difficult, but astounding, truth with prevail in your hearts because of Christ. We will pray but we also want to hear if there are other things we can do to help, even from afar. We love you guys.

  11. The lessons I have learned from your beautiful 4-year old princess of the Most High are incredible! I just know that the message of the gospel, of the hope that lies within us that put our faith and trust in Jesus, has reached countless people because of the place the Lord has brought your family to and for that and much, much more, “Still, I will praise You Lord!” love you guys very much 🙂

  12. just beside myself, can’t stop crying either, praying and praying, wish i was there, your are all so faithful, this situation no matter what the outcome has forever changed my life , God’s will be done, surrendering to whatever He chooses to do is all we can do, all things will be clear some day, praise God that there is purpose in all He does, Susana is so strong, precious child of God has brought and will bring so much inspiration to so many. i am here praying continually, love you

  13. Beautiful little girl! Teaches all of us what true worship should be! “I will praise you in this storm” God is still in control, we just wait for his answers. We love you Susanna!! Remember Madison is praying for you constantly and loves you! Your picture is on our refrigerator and we pray several times daily for you!

  14. What a testimony! Thank you for sharing your life, one of my friends send me this link and God used this trial to touch my life in amazing way. I know it is not easy at all for you and your family but God is our God´s of miracles and He can do a miracle in your precious daughter. I want to have the image of this picture in my heart because what an amazing example to praise Him in all the times. I am in Mexico and I want you to let you know that my church will be praying for your daughter Susan.
    God bless you!!
    “…May your unfailing love my comfort, according to your promise to your servant…” Psalm 119:76

  15. Lord, if it is Your will to take Your little princess home to You…let it be so.

    But Lord I still believe that You can heal her completely on this side of Heaven – with faith even as small as a mustard seed. And that’s all that You’ve said is required of me. We pray united for a miracle…

    But let Your perfect will be done…

    I love you guys, and my heart has not stopped aching since I heard the news. I don’t like this at all, but I am diligently praying for you all – especially your little girls.

    “I thank my God upon every remembrance of you, always in every prayer of mine making request for you all with joy…” Phil 1:3,4

  16. Cody, I am so encouraged and blown away at your strength and faith under such rough and heartbreaking circumstances. I am still praying for a miracle, and also trusting in reverance to our Great and Holy God; Jesus “fell with His face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as You will.” (Matthew 26:39) I also think of Job’s deep grief and trusting response, “The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised.” (Job 1:21b) In all of this, we still cry out to a merciful God. We do not know the future and what He has in store for precious Susana, but we know she is His, and He will fulfill His will and plan for her. May God’s name be honored and glorified!! What a powerful response to such an uncertain painful journey, “Still, I will praise You Lord!” God is so Good and Faithful!! I will continue to lift you all up in prayer and be available if you need me. Just let me know what, if anything, I can do to help you. Hugs to you all!

    Psalm 63:7-8 “for you have been my help, and in the shadow of your wings I will sing for joy. My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me.”

    Psalm 62:5-8 “Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; He is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in Him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge.”

    Psalm 77
    1 I cried out to God for help;
    I cried out to God to hear me.
    2 When I was in distress, I sought the Lord;
    at night I stretched out untiring hands,
    and I would not be comforted.
    3 I remembered you, God, and I groaned;
    I meditated, and my spirit grew faint.[b]
    4 You kept my eyes from closing;
    I was too troubled to speak.
    5 I thought about the former days,
    the years of long ago;
    6 I remembered my songs in the night.
    My heart meditated and my spirit asked:
    7 “Will the Lord reject forever?
    Will he never show his favor again?
    8 Has his unfailing love vanished forever?
    Has his promise failed for all time?
    9 Has God forgotten to be merciful?
    Has he in anger withheld his compassion?”
    10 Then I thought, “To this I will appeal:
    the years when the Most High stretched out his right hand.
    11 I will remember the deeds of the LORD;
    yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.
    12 I will consider all your works
    and meditate on all your mighty deeds.”
    13 Your ways, God, are holy.
    What god is as great as our God?
    14 You are the God who performs miracles;
    you display your power among the peoples.
    15 With your mighty arm you redeemed your people,
    the descendants of Jacob and Joseph.
    16 The waters saw you, God,
    the waters saw you and writhed;
    the very depths were convulsed.
    17 The clouds poured down water,
    the heavens resounded with thunder;
    your arrows flashed back and forth.
    18 Your thunder was heard in the whirlwind,
    your lightning lit up the world;
    the earth trembled and quaked.
    19 Your path led through the sea,
    your way through the mighty waters,
    though your footprints were not seen.
    20 You led your people like a flock
    by the hand of Moses and Aaron.

    Psalm 80:7 “Restore us, God Almighty; make your face shine on us, that we may be saved.”

    Ephesians 3:14-21 “For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of His glorious riches He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever! Amen.”

    God Bless You all!!

  17. I do not know your family and may not while here on Earth but, by His grace, I can’t wait to know you all when I get to Heaven! I am so sorry that you have to endure this now, but will pray for you and look towards eternity with you.

  18. Praying so for you…Psalm 34:18 The LORD is near to the brokenhearted.

    He is near….. Oh, how beautiful is your praise in the midst of such heartache. May you be comforted with His presence.

  19. I learned of your situation through a mutual friend, Philip Thurman. My daughter lost her husband a couple of years ago with leukemia. They have three children. But, I can only imagine the pain that you are feeling right now. Please know that I am praying for you all. I wrote a blog that I have shared with my friends asking them to pray for The Whittakers. Temple Baptist Church in Hattiesburg, Ms, where I serve as Executive Pastor, will be praying for you all.

    God will hold you up!

  20. Cody and family- please know you are all in our prayers. Our hearts are so burdened for you. We know you have hope and your testimony of your faith is incredible, thank you for your transparency. We read your journey and it is heartwrenching yet as her family we can only imagine how deep and piercing your pain. We are praying that God would pierce the darkness of the situation with His love and be your light on this path you walk.

  21. How can they hear? The life of Susana screams out the name of Jesus. I feel blessed to even see that photo.

    Thank you for sharing this journey.

    Know that as a student pastor, I will call on my youth, parents, and entire congregation to approach the Lord for your family.

  22. Dear Maria and Cody,
    I know for a certainty that God wants Susana to live. Diseases are not from God. Your faith and strength are being tested but you WILL be victorious and so will Susana. The bible says that we have were given the same power and authority that Jesus Christ had when he walked on this earth. He healed the sick, gave sight to the blind and cast out demons. God wants Susana WELL! You have the power and authority to speak to the cancer to leave Susana’s body. Yes, you do! To lay hands on her tiny body and demand that the cancer leave her body. In the name of Jesus Christ! Be assured that God is willing and able to heal Susana through you by same the power and authority of Jesus Christ. Do not allow negative reports to shake your faith in the God who is unfailling and who wants and is willing to heal Susana. Cast out all negative words that your ears may hear, rebuke any negative thoughts and invision Susana completely healed, because this is what GOD wants. Let God’s GLORY be revealed and be a testimony of a miracle from God. All you have to do is believe and receive. Praise Him, thank Him, thank Him, thank him, for the victory!!!!
    I will continue to pray for your faith and perseverance through this trial and know that you will be victorious. There is no other way. In the powerful name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior.

  23. Hi Cody and Maria,

    I humbly share this with you… I love you guys and lifting you up to our Sovereign Creator that breaths life into us by His Spirit…

  24. Jonathan,

    Thanks for the link to such an awesome song. I will definitely put that one on my iphone. Thanks so much for your prayers and love.

  25. Better is one day in your courts, better is one day in your house, better is one day in your courts, than thousands elsewhere, than thousands elsewhere!

    I love you all & am praying. :~)

  26. I am forever amazed at your faith. I don’t know if I could be as brave, faithful and full of grace as you are. It certainly makes one think.

  27. As a member of Biltmore Baptist in Asheville, NC, I know that our connect group is constantly praying for God to bless your family. I, however, after reading your recent blogs, could not feel more blessed. Your daughter is surely one of God’s angels in disguise!!

  28. I hope so much your little daughter is well,and that God has already healed her.He is always with you,never forget that!
    from germany,m.

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