One of Susana’s favorite worship songs is Matt Redman’s “You never let go.” The bridge of the song is, “I can see the light that is coming for the heart that holds on. And there will be an end to these struggles, but until that day comes, still I will praise You, still I will praise You Lord. Every time we sing it together in the car, just as the line says, “but until that day comes”, I say out loud, “What are we gonna do?” And then we all point up to heaven as we sing, “Still I will praise You. Still I will praise You Lord.”
And this is what we have been doing through it all…and this is what we will continue to do until “that day comes” for each one of us. Below is a picture of Susana doing just that several months ago in the hospital. Here she is, stricken with cancer, being prodded and poked by so many doctors and nurses, having more tests and scans done than most people do in a lifetime, and what is she doing? Lifting up her hands in praise and adoration to Jesus! Oh my beautiful girl! What an inspiration!!!
And that is what we are all doing. We will not stop lifting our hands to Jesus and praising His glorious name. He is so good to have prepared a place in heaven for those who trust in Him. How can we ever shake our fist at God and be angry at Him for what is happening? We simply cannot. He is overwhelmingly good in all He does. If this life was the end, then yes, I would be leading the way with the fists raised with fury. But this is not the end. He has made us with eternity in our hearts. We know that this is the beginning for Susana. The beginning of true life. Yes, God is good. Yes, this still hurts more than words could ever describe. But, yes, Still we will praise the Lord.”
And that’s just what I did this morning at church. Through the flowing of tears throughout worship, throughout the teaching, and throughout our small group. But, still I was praising the Lord. Some people were shocked to see me in church just days after getting the news that my 4 year old precious daughter is dying. But, I couldn’t be at a better place THAN church. What better should I do? Watch TV all day? Go to the casino? Join a social club? No, in the house of God is the ONLY place where I want to be to find strength, comfort, grace, truth, and love. There is no better place.
It reminds me of what Peter said when many of the disciples turned away from following Jesus because His ways just seemed too hard. Jesus looked to them and said, “Are you also going to leave?” To which Peter replied, “Lord, to whom should we go? You alone have the words of eternal life.” And that is how we feel. Yes, we have come to a part of our journey in following Jesus that is harder than ever. it is a difficult way. It offends all that the natural mind and natural eye see. but, by His grace, we shall cling to Him. By His grace, we shall not leave. For just like Peter, we also can go no place else, for in Christ alone is our hope found. And no matter what struggles we go through, He gives us the grace to say, “Still I will praise You…Still I will praise You Lord.