A friend of ours sent a picture that I had posted a few days ago (the one of Susana looking up to Jesus and praising Him just as she was about to go in for more procedures) to Matt Redman, the one who wrote the song that we were singing when that picture was taken (“You Never Let Go”). Anyway, the email and blog post reached him in the UK where he lives, and he sent a personal video message back to Susana thanking her and encouraging her to keep praising Jesus and being a great example to all of us. Check it out below:
Susana was thrilled to see the message from him. She got so excited when she saw somebody on the computer saying, “Hello Susana.” She was waving hello back to him on the computer. It was so sweet. It really blessed us.
Anyway, the thing that really blows us away is how the Lord is using her story and our trial to reach many many people. Our greatest desire is to bring glory to His name and tell others of His wonderful love so that they also may come to know the saving grace of Jesus. That’s what our lives are all about. That’s why we are missionaries in Haiti as well as missionaries proclaiming the goodness of God in the hospital by our daughter’s bedside. Maria and I were just talking about this last night as we thought about how God is using this situation. It blows us away, as the Lord always does. I mean, our thought of being used most by God and reaching many with the awesome truth of God’s love would never have been through the trial of Susana getting cancer and possibly being called home to heaven at the young age of four. Our thought of God using us most would be as missionaries in Haiti reaching out and telling many of the love and truth of Jesus. But it is so true that the Lord’s plans are so much different than ours. And they are truly so much better.
I don’t know why, but yesterday our blog had almost 20,000 hits on it. I look at that and say, “Lord, your name was lifted up and glorified by our family to almost 20,000 people in one day. How amazing is that! And that is our prayer – that the Lord will be glorified and that people will hear of His great love and truth. And if it takes Susana’s passing to heaven to accomplish His purpose, then may it be as the Lord desires.
I have said many times that even if just one person comes to faith in Christ through this trial, then it will be so worth it and I would not seek to change a thing. And I mean that sincerely. I mean, if one person comes to know Jesus through this, then that means that not only will Susana be in heaven with Jesus in eternal glory, but now somebody else will be there too as a result of Him using Susana’s life or death. And that is what we live our lives for – to see people come to know Him.
Well, we give great praise and glory to His name because we have already heard of one person who has surrendered their life to Jesus because of how she saw us giving praise to God and trusting Him completely in our greatest hour of pain and suffering. We also received a comment from a woman who said that she has returned to Jesus after 20 years of denying Him out of anger for her Mom’s death. But because of what she saw in Susana, God has broken her heart and she has returned to Jesus. O that makes my heart so full of praise for Him and it enables us to say all the more, “Lord, whatever you wish to do with our daughter…she is in Your hands. Be glorified.”
Make a Wish is sending our family to Disney for a week. We leave on Sunday. Susana is so excited! She can’t wait to meet “Tangled” as she so calls Rapunzel. All of my family will also be flying down to join us at some point in the week. It should be a very special time for all of us.
Right now, I am in the clinic with Susana where she is getting blood simply so that she will have lots of energy for the trip. She has been doing well these past few days, but she is losing weight because she doesn’t eat or drink enough. The doctor said that there is nothing we can really do about that. The tumors in her body just cause her to not have much appetite. Anyway, we are just every day thanking Jesus for the time that we have with our precious little girl and trusting Him for His will to be carried out.
Lastly, the prayers and support that has been shown to us is simply overwhelming! Thank you ALL so much. We don’t respond to 99% of comments or emails, but know for certain that we read each and every one of them, and they bless us and give us the strength that we need to continue to endure in this trial. You all are such a blessing! Thanks so much for getting word out about our story. The Lord is being glorified all over the world. I just pray that many come to know Jesus as a result of this.