“Is Jesus all sufficient for you?” That’s what my good friend asked me a few days ago after I called him to vent out all my frustrations as to what I have been going through related to Susana’s treatment and such. I shared with him my total frustrations that I was having due to not being able to spend time alone with my wife because one of us is always at the hospital. I shared with him my emotions and the need that I was feeling and the fear that I was trying to insulate myself from the pain. I was a mess when I shared. My emotions were off the chart…it was just one of those days. Maybe I hoped that he would say, “Hey man, its ok. God understands.” But that is not what he said. After all my dumping, he simply asked me the question of all questions, “Is Jesus all sufficient for you?” And its exactly what I needed to hear.
It brought conviction to my heart as I knew that my answer to that question based on the last week would sadly be “No.” Yet I know that the truth is that Jesus really is all sufficient, but I had let that slip my mind this past week and I was getting swallowed up in a whirlwind of emotions. And so, that simple question convicted my heart and just popped the massive bubble of all the confusion, anger, and frustration that was in my head.
The next morning, which was yesterday, I got on my knees and repented before the Lord for not looking to Him and trusting Him solely to meet all my needs. I asked for the grace to do just that. I didn’t deny my needs before the Lord. They are completely legitimate and completely understandable, but nonetheless they become sin if I am focusing on them more so than focusing on the Lord. And that is exactly what I have been doing this past week or so.
Right after praying and crying out to the Lord, I opened up my bible as I have just started to read through the Book of 2 Peter. And the verse I read that completely exemplified what God was showing me through the conversation with my friend and through my time with Him in prayer was this: “He has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of Him who called us by His own glory and goodness.” (2Peter 1:3) And so, there it was, right in front of my eyes…the all sufficiency of Christ. And His word is truth. He truly is enough. He truly has given me everything I need for life and godliness. And after meditating on that one verse, it became more real to me in that moment… “Jesus, You are more than enough for me.”
Since then, my heart has been lifted. My focus has been renewed. My eyes are fixed on Him. And I am satisfied.
And, as is the case when we finally learn what God wants to teach us, He then rewards us and meets our need. He provided an opportunity later that day for my wife and I to leave the hospital for about 4 hours…ALONE!!! This was our first time alone in almost a month. It was wonderful. We had an amazing time together and it was so good to just reconnect with her and get away from hospital life for a bit. I want to say a huge THANK YOU to our dear friend Miss Tootie for making the sacrifice of driving from Asheville to sit with Susana and Isabela so that my wife and I were able to go out and have a date.
And so I am thankful for the sufficiency of Christ. He truly has given us everything we need for life and godliness.