Not the kind of bedtime story that I ever thought I would be telling, but nonetheless it was the story that I just had to share with Susana this morning. She took it so well, which gave me the ability to continue and get more creative in telling the story rather than breaking down and crying which is what almost happened when I first began. Susana is doing really well right now, but that is why I had to have this talk with her. We are about to go back to the hospital for round 2 of chemo. Her counts are going to drop significantly. She is going to need to get pricked and poked probably hundreds of more times throughout this process. I had to explain to her that even though she feels good right now, that she is still sick on the inside and that is why we will have to be going to the hospital a lot in this next year. I want her to be informed as much as a 4 year old should be informed. I just want her to know why we have to keep going to the hospital. I want her to know why it is so important that we have tens of thousands of people praying for her throughout the world. I want her to know why so many people came up to us yesterday in church and told her that they have been praying for her. I want her to know why she won’t be able to do anything that she wants to do.
So, she now knows that she has cancer and that cancer can be very dangerous. She now knows that we need to be praying constantly that the Lord heals her of this disease. She now knows why her hair has fallen out. And she now knows why she needs to fight like never before. I explained to her that she has tumors inside of her, to which she said that she did not know what that meant. So, I had to get creative in my explanation. I told her that there are these invaders, like little bad monsters that have found their way into her body and are trying to take over and spread themselves out everywhere. I told her that these tumors do not belong in her body and that she has to fight with the power of the Lord to tell them to go away. So, then I pretended that I was a big tumor trying to get her and I told her that she needs to say, “Get out of here tumor. You don’t belong here. By the power of God you can leave!” And then as she said this, I would pretend that I was shriveling up and falling to the floor and dying. She was laughing like crazy and it was really good.
I think all of this helps her understand, which in turn will help her fight. I promised her that Mommy, Daddy, and Isabela will be right by her side fighting with her. And then we both prayed together. And then she ran off to play.
Isn’t that the way it should be with us? Isn’t that what the scripture means when it says to “not be anxious about anything, but by prayer and petition, and with thanksgiving in our hearts, make our requests known to God and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard our hearts and our minds in Christ Jesus.” So, what that could look like is just what Susana demonstrated: We talk about this dreaded disease called cancer. We talk about tumors invading the body. Then we turn to the Lord in prayer, present our requests to Him, and then….we run off and play. That’s faith!!! That’s the greatness of our God!!!